You deserve Love 😍
We are just humans and as humans, we tend to dream and fantasize about that perfectly created human that is going to be our forever person. We are dreaming about the way we will meet them and how everything will have a fairytale stories.
In the search of that special person, we end up meeting and kissing different frogs that dress up like prince charming. In this generation, those frogs appear on dating sites, through DM’s on Instagram, through PM’s on Messenger, some of them on little coffee shops and others in work. There are plenty guys out there and we think that one of them could be the one God has chosen for us.
When things fail, and don’t work the way we planned, we end up home alone, feeling miserable with our sleeping pajamas, we eat a lot while listening to music and watching tv that makes us more sad, and we ask God every night why did He let those things happen.
I’ve gone through that uncountable times, heartbreak after heartbreak I turn to God, complaining with Him and getting mad, but later I realize that He was protecting me from something bigger.
I constantly wonder and pray to Him about my soecial person. I wonder what he looks like or if I already know him and are we friends right now, but then reality hits me and I realize that I’m single, not miserable or lonely, just single.
Life is not like the movies, that you accidentally meet someone on the street, you meet on dating sites, or in any social media and you fall in love after exchanging some words. Love doesn’t start after he buys you coffee and leaves his phone number to you. Love is not all about sex either.
Sometimes I feel so tired and hopeless. But I decided not to look for and just enjoy every friendship I have. Enjoy every minute being single mom, focusing on what is good for the three of us.
When people keep on asking why not get married again.. why not look for your forever (Gosh! Guys it is not that easy). You are not getting any younger (i know). People also said maybe you still love your ex hubby (my love for him will never change that is the love i have for him because that is for him. Who am i not to dream to have a complete family). I made a decision to let God move, just let me feel how to be loved and to love again.
I know waiting is difficult, especially with all the romantic stuff we see on social media, TV shows and movies. We hear stories about how our friends have found the one in random situations and we ask God, why we can’t find that person?
But all we have to do is be patient, walk our own journey in order to reach our goals and maybe there, when we least expect it, God will move everything to make us find the one our soul had been looking for. It’s all about His time.
God’s timing is perfect, he let me be for Himself for a long time and made our relationship deeper and stronger. I know he wanted me to be happy. Unexplainable things are happening even google and science could not explain. You never expected once you are just the best friends in town, bullied to each other, and now being both happy everyday …. the friendship that level up …. no spoiling just being happy … we just fall in love again. It’s magic!
Mam Aj 😍
